February

I can't believe February is here already.

I am exhausted. I still don't feel like I can leave Todd and Tate in the same room together without being there to referee. I really need God's help with these two.

I have not gotten much sleep this past week, and I feel like I am getting sick. I wheeze when I breathe. I tried to go to the doctor today, but the appointment got cancelled, after I had already gone to the office. I have to reschedule.

Since my appointment was cancelled, I went to my mom's house for a while and we watched the movie, Amelia. I was pleasantly surprised that Chris Eccelston was in it. I wish he'd had a bigger part. I miss him as Doctor Who. He was a great Doctor.

I am still worried about how my mother is going to survive once the divorce is final and Harry moves to Arkansas. I am afraid she may get back together with Steve.

Steve is a man who is hard not to like. He has a sort of charisma. The problem is that Steve is bipolar with delusions of grandeur. He wants/tries to be a spiritual leader to people. He has never gotten anybody to follow him, probably because his ideas are just too far out there for people to believe in. He believes in God, but he fancies himself some sort of healer and always has some new idea/scheme to improve people's health. These ideas have included bathing in muriatic acid and ingesting small amounts of mouse poison.

My mom absolutely loves Steve, but they have such fundemental disagreements as far as faith goes that she would never marry him. She did allow him to pull her out of her religion for six years, however, before she broke it off with him completely and married Harry.

One of the big problems is that there are no single men my mother's age within her religion. That is why she ended up marrying Harry outside of her religion. Mom once said she would rather spend her life as a bar fly than end up all alone for the rest of it. I don't know if she still feels that way or not, so I have to pray for her to find a means to survive financially after Harry leaves, and also for her to find companionship so that she does not spend the rest of her life alone.