How Do I Breathe?

I need to go back to the doctor. The prescriptions he gave me did not help, and I am having more trouble breathing than ever. Just walking from the bedroom to the living room (a distance of about 10 feet) got me so out of breath. It took me about 5 minutes to catch my breath. That is why I have not been posting a blog every night. I can only be on the computer a short time before I need to lie down and rest. I haven't felt like eating either, which is a good thing. I think I have lost a little bit of weight.

Todd and Tate are doing okay. I can never quite relax around them. There is no telling when things will erupt. This morning Tate's bus was cancelled, so Todd decided to drive him to school. Well, Tate gave him a tough time about it, but instead of getting angry, Todd just came to me. I told Tate to get in the Blazer so his dad could drive him to school. Tate complied. When he got back home, Todd said he wished he had not done it. Apparently the visibility was really bad- which would explain why they cancelled the busses, but Tate has already missed so much school, he can't afford to miss anymore.

Here is where I do my little rant about how, if they are going to cancel the busses, they need to cancel classes too. Otherwise, it is unfair to the bus riders. It is like they are missing out on part of their education just because of where they live. Do any other parts of the country ever have just the busses cancelled, but classes still held for those who walk to school? If I had more energy I might write to the school board about it and protest until things were changed, but I don't have the energy for activism at this point.

Something happened that I am very upset about, but it requires a lot of background and explaining, so I just don't have enough energy to write about it at this point.

My mom is signing up to go to an online college. I am proud of her. She wants to take psychology. I will be so amazed if my mom becomes a therapist. I get good grades in psychology, but I really don't want a job listening to other people's problems. Oh, did I tell you last week when I called to talk to Todd's therapist and ended up talking to his supervisor because he was out of the office, the first thing she suggested I do was get a restraining order against Todd. I told her in no uncertain terms that I would not do that to my husband, but can you imagine if I were a weaker person? She could have talked me into throwing my husband out and wrecked my marriage. A lot of times therapists do more harm than good in that way.

Todd has been waking up with very painful muscle cramps in his legs. He could use prayers to ease his pain. Please pray for me to get well, and for the love in our house to continue to grow. Thank you.