Star Trek's Trek

Well, Star Trek took a trek to the vet today. Mom called and made an appointment at the Redwood vet clinic. I went with her because she did not know where it was. We have taken our animals there from time to time. They are wonderful, but can be very expensive.

They said that they think Star Trek may have actually been shot, or possibly attacked by a larger dog. It is hard to tell by the wounds. It looks like there was an entry wound on his hind quarters, and then an exit wound next to his penis. There also seems to be some other bleeding going on underneith him, but the vet had a hard time because moving his leg out of the way to get a good look caused him so much pain, so they offered to keep him overnight, at no charge, then tomorrow they are going to sedate him, and shave the areas so they can see what is going on, and then they will be able to tell the extent of the wounds and whether any critical organs were damaged. They said they would try to avoid xrays because we really don't have the money to pay for them. I gave Mom the money to pay for half of the services because she is really going to be hurting for money after Harry leaves.

Mom told me today that Harry had been the answer to her prayers. He did not give her any grief about practicing her religion the way Steve had. He was very clean, and he helped her with Grandpa and took care of her, and that was what she prayed for.

The problem is that he wants to take too good of care of her. He smothers her, and he wants her to do the same for him, which she is not willing to do. She wants to be left alone so she can write and do her own thing. He seemed to take an interest in her writing at first, but now I think he resents it. She has finished 4 novels since they have been together, which is only three years. I think he would be less resentful if she got one of the novels published.

I really feel bad for Harry. The whole situation breaks my heart. I like Harry, even though I never got very close to him. I know that he tried so hard to make Mom happy. He isn't perfect, and I know that the fact that he is racist is a big problem for Mom. I don't think that I could live with that either... but I don't blame him for it, I feel sorry for him. I think that he is a victim of his environment in that way. I am sure he could overcome it if he had the right motivation, but when it is something so deeply engrained, it is not easy to do, and I doubt that Mom ever told him how much it bothers her.

Now that Mom and Harry are breaking up, Mom thinks that God is unhappy with her about it, and that is making it hard for her to trust in Him.

Personaly, I am stressed about it too because I know how much income Mom has without Harry, and it is not enough for her to get by on. I suggested she become a foster parent, because she has always been so good with teenage girls, but she doesn't really want to do that. I can't say I blame her, but I don't know how else she will be able to manage to make it. If I could, I would give her some money every month to help her, but I can't even pay my own bills. I will just have to pray for her and trust God to provide.