The past two years I have gotten very sick in the month of February. I don't know why, but my lungs get so congested that I need to use oxygen. My feet and ankles swell to almost twice their normal size. I get achey all over, and the worst part is that my menstrual period does not end. I have bled non-stop for up to eight weeks. The doctors have to prescribe the hormone provera to get it to stop. Still, I can be thankful that they do not have to do a d&c.
This year, it seems February is coming early. Here it is, only January 23rd, and my ankles and feet are already swollen, I am bleeding, and I ache more than usual. My lungs have not yet filled with fluid, but I imagine they will with all this water that I seem to be retaining. I don't have the gasoline to go see my doctor, but I am thankful that I have plenty of oxygen on hand. If there is anybody out there praying for me, please pray for my health to improve and for me to be able to lose weight since the weight loss surgery was denied by my insurance.
Todd is handling the situation with Tate's cutting of his arm all wrong. He is very angry about it, and I don't understand why. Maybe the anger is disguising a fear that since Tate is cutting that it will lead to an attempted suicide or something. Whatever the reason, he tried to ground Tate from the computer today until he stops cutting his arm. I handled that all wrong because I yelled at Todd about it in front of Tate, but punishing a child for cutting is the worst thing you can do.
I am afraid now that Tate knows it bothers his dad that much, he will do it even more. I did find out that he does not do the cutting here at home. He does it with his friends at school. As far as I know, he started cutting at about the same time he started ditching school.
I ditched school a lot when I was Tate's age. I never got caught, and I didn't get into trouble. Most of the time, I went to the local community college and hung around the radio station. I don't know what Tate is doing with his friends when they ditch, apart from cutting themselves, but I fear they may be having sex and/or doing drugs. I really need Jehovah's help with this one because I feel powerless to stop him.
There has never been a time in my life when we have been worse off financially. There was a movie night at Graham's school last night, and we could not come up with three dollars so that he could go. It made me just want to cry. I know that money is not the key to happiness, but it sure does make for a lot of added unhappiness when you don't have any.
I have trouble trusting in Jehovah some times. I feel like it is my own responsibility to fix the problems in my life, and I don't feel like I have the right to ask Him for help if I am not also looking for a solution. I think that going back to school is a positive step in trying to improve our financial situation, but it is such a long road. I need to trust Him to provide the things we need in the mean time.
This year, it seems February is coming early. Here it is, only January 23rd, and my ankles and feet are already swollen, I am bleeding, and I ache more than usual. My lungs have not yet filled with fluid, but I imagine they will with all this water that I seem to be retaining. I don't have the gasoline to go see my doctor, but I am thankful that I have plenty of oxygen on hand. If there is anybody out there praying for me, please pray for my health to improve and for me to be able to lose weight since the weight loss surgery was denied by my insurance.
Todd is handling the situation with Tate's cutting of his arm all wrong. He is very angry about it, and I don't understand why. Maybe the anger is disguising a fear that since Tate is cutting that it will lead to an attempted suicide or something. Whatever the reason, he tried to ground Tate from the computer today until he stops cutting his arm. I handled that all wrong because I yelled at Todd about it in front of Tate, but punishing a child for cutting is the worst thing you can do.
I am afraid now that Tate knows it bothers his dad that much, he will do it even more. I did find out that he does not do the cutting here at home. He does it with his friends at school. As far as I know, he started cutting at about the same time he started ditching school.
I ditched school a lot when I was Tate's age. I never got caught, and I didn't get into trouble. Most of the time, I went to the local community college and hung around the radio station. I don't know what Tate is doing with his friends when they ditch, apart from cutting themselves, but I fear they may be having sex and/or doing drugs. I really need Jehovah's help with this one because I feel powerless to stop him.
There has never been a time in my life when we have been worse off financially. There was a movie night at Graham's school last night, and we could not come up with three dollars so that he could go. It made me just want to cry. I know that money is not the key to happiness, but it sure does make for a lot of added unhappiness when you don't have any.
I have trouble trusting in Jehovah some times. I feel like it is my own responsibility to fix the problems in my life, and I don't feel like I have the right to ask Him for help if I am not also looking for a solution. I think that going back to school is a positive step in trying to improve our financial situation, but it is such a long road. I need to trust Him to provide the things we need in the mean time.
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