Progress and Anger

Well, I think there has been some progress with Tate after we recently grounded him from the computer and his ipod for two weeks. Twice he has apologized to me for things. That is unheard of. I think we are back on the right track. Thank God.

There is a woman in my Christian Worldview class who is infuriating. She refuses to address half the assignment because it is "too different from what she believes." People like that are the reason there is so much misunderstanding about beliefs in the world. They are the reason propaganda and hatred can be perpetuated.

Lastly, I am out of my mind angry because I just found out that Liz, my mother’s husband’s son’s girlfriend, is a child sex offender. My children have been around this woman for the past three years. Tate even told me that he felt like she was flirting with him a couple of times. I just shrugged it off. I didn’t think he knew what flirting was. Now I wish I had listened to him. The Megan’s Law website says she was convicted of “penetration with a foreign object” and that the victim was under 16. That is all the information it gives about the crime. The picture is a new one. It looks like a driver’s license photo. They probably update the pictures every time they renew their licenses.

I am just sick to my stomach thinking that my children have been alone with this woman. I am going to ask them and make sure that she has not done anything to them. If she touched either of my children, she is going to wish she was never born. She and John have moved to another town. They are apparently out in the desert, miles away from anyone or anything. That is a good thing. If she was still here, my children would not ever be around her again.

Because I was molested as a child, I tried to be hyper-vigilant to make sure nothing like that would ever happen to my kids. I feel like I fell short in this case. I disliked Liz from the moment, the very moment I met her. Now I don’t feel badly about it anymore. I need to trust my instincts more. My instincts told me she was no good the moment that I met her. I remember that the first thing she said to me was a slam about John, while John was sitting right there.

John told my mom about it when he called her the other night. He wants to break up with Liz. I am not sure why he called my mother. I think he was trying to get her to talk to his mother so she would send him the money to move out of Liz's place. He also told my mom that he was sorry things did not work out between her and his father. Personaly, I think John is sorry that he can't sponge off of them anymore.

Harry is in Arkansas now, living with his brother, at least until he can get on his feet. I hope that he finds what he is looking for there. He is a good man and he will make some woman happy, if he can find a woman who will appreciate the attnetion he wants to give her.

On another note, Todd has been having violent muscle spasms. His entire body shakes and his pain is so great that it scares me. Please pray for his pain to be lessened. Thank you.