Judy

It's been a long time since I have written anything. I have been ... occupying my time with stupid games and things, not really accomplishing anything.

Judy died. I can't even tell you her last name, but she lived six trailers down from us, and she was a wonderful person. She used to work with special needs kids like Graham at the school, but she had to quit her job because she had MS.

Judy was sad about not being able to work anymore, and that is why I think she and Graham hit it off so well, because he needed help with school and she needed to help someone.

I can't begin to list the things Judy did for Graham. She took care of him when I was at school, or just... distracted. And she loved Graham, she loved him. She loved him. And then she moved away, because she got into an assisted care building. I never took Graham to visit her there. Why didn't I take him? I was near the building so many times. It would not have been hard to stop in, but I didn't. There was always something else, something that seemed more pressing. Something more important. And so much time goes by. And I can't believe she is dead now, and I can't take him to see her. I can't believe she is gone. She was only a little older than I am. And I feel like I am drowning in this pain I feel.

I am so sorry, Judy. Graham always loved you, and so did I. I could never thank you enough for all that you did for him.